For me, the line between good and bad are blurred, but can you blame me? Up until I was eleven, I was raised like any other normal child -- the human way. After the Winchesters and their angel found me, I ran. And I ran for a long time.
[This is an individual RP account. Literate. Mainly Supernatural, but I'll roleplay with just about anyone. Multiverse]
There’s another world inside of me that you may never see
There’s secrets in this life that I can’t hide
Somewhere in this darkness there’s a light that I can’t find
Maybe it’s too far away, maybe I’m just blind
Maybe I’m just blind
So hold me when I’m here, right me when I’m wrong
Hold me when I’m scared and love me when I’m gone
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I’ll never let you down even if I could
I’d give up everything if only for your good
So hold me when I’m here, right me when I’m wrong
You can hold me when I’m scared you won’t always be there
So love me when I’m gone, love me when I’m gone
When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin
I won’t tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends
And roaming through this darkness I’m alive but I’m alone
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is goneSo hold me when I’m here, right me when I’m wrong
Hold me when I’m scared and love me when I’m gone
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to beI’ll never let you down even if I could
I’d give up everything if only for your good
So hold me when I’m here, right me when I’m wrong
You can hold me when I’m scared, you won’t always be there
So love me when I’m gone
Maybe I’m just blind
So hold me when I’m here, right me when I’m wrong
Hold me when I’m scared and love me when I’m gone
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I’ll never let you down even if I could
I’d give up everything if only for your good
So hold me when I’m here, right me when I’m wrong
You can hold me when I’m scared, you won’t always be there
So love me when I’m gone
Love me when I’m gone, whoa
Love me when I’m gone, when I’m gone
When I’m gone, when I’m gone
All nice and shiny and new?
All nice, shiny, and new. Just for you.
I’m sittin’ right here, Kels.
I see that.
So come and play with me, Kels. I’ve got a knife that’s got your name waiting for ya.
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((GUYS. EDEN AND LILITH ARE TIED. THIS IS EITHER REALLY GOOD OR REALLY BAD.))
… -He watched her carefully, brows pulling together. It had been much too long since the last time he had spoken to Kelsey. She had to know of the darkness within her by now. It was what had woken his up. He had wanted her to join him, but she wasn’t ready. Maybe now was the time, when she couldn’t take losing the people she cared about —- the Achilles Heel.; Kelsey, think about it… If you give in, you’ll have this amazing amount of power. You would be able to protect all the ones you love. Just like that.
Power that she wouldn’t know how to control… But Jesse would teach you. The thought was purred to her by that darker side of her, and she was quiet; rubbing the side of her neck slowly. “I…” She was caving, she knew it; and it made her sick to think it — But Jesse had a point.
“Think about it,” Jesse purred, grinning lightly. “You’ll be able to tell everyone not to worry about you because you’d be able to take care of yourself and them.” He frowned lightly, reaching a hand over to brush his fingers against her cheek. “But that’s not going to stop their worrying, of course. It never does. But it’d give you a peace of mind.” He started to move, circling her. “Think about it Kelsey.”
I-I… -She stared at him for several, long moments; several things flickering in her over-bright blue gaze. Jesse has been there for her through everything. Before she met Dean and Sam, before she met all her other friends. She was sick of fighting with him, of watching him walk away. But what he was saying, it scared her — It went against everything she’d ever grown up thinking — It meant becoming something she feared, and hated.- I… -Her gaze dropped from his, and she pushed her hand through her hair, swallowing hard.- … I’m sick of fighting with you, Jesse. -She said softly, swallowing again.-
… -He watched her carefully, brows pulling together. It had been much too long since the last time he had spoken to Kelsey. She had to know of the darkness within her by now. It was what had woken his up. He had wanted her to join him, but she wasn’t ready. Maybe now was the time, when she couldn’t take losing the people she cared about —- the Achilles Heel.; Kelsey, think about it… If you give in, you’ll have this amazing amount of power. You would be able to protect all the ones you love. Just like that.
Dammit, Jesse! This is only a part of you. It doesn’t have to be all that you are! You know I don’t care if this is who you are, you’re like my brother and you always will be, Jes.
You’re right. It isn’t the only part of me. But it doesn’t matter anymore, Kelsey. Because it’s not a matter of being half of this or half of that — I don’t have to worry about what I am anymore because I know what I am. I’m one thing… And this is who I am. Yeah, you’ll always be family. But I have a new lifestyle and it isn’t changing any time soon. And you know… I want you to join. You can, if you wanted. All you have to do is let go. You wanna be together again? Then join me, Kelsey. We don’t have to be this way anymore.
Please what? I’ve accepted what I am — who I am. I can’t go back to… to what I was before.
Yes you can. This isn’t all you are! I know it’s not, Jesse.
This is who I am! Why can’t you see that?! I have been hiding who I am from you and from everyone else and this is the real me.
